Drabble: Only The Dark| Hermione/Sirius| R

[ceredwensirius]

Title: Only The Dark
Word Count: 245
Author: ceredwensirius
Written For: grangerblack100
Rating: R
Challenge: Rebirth
Disclaimer: Not my characters
Authors Notes: Thank you to my beta whitmans_kiss



They liken it, he knows, to a rebirth of sorts; this sack of bone and blood in which he squirms. Sweat, and piss, and shit, and the uncomfortable thrumming of his heart in his chest; all these things with which he must now contend - the banalities of life that got lost beyond a simple tattered piece of cloth. Love, and peace, and friends reunited all lost in an exchange for pain and confusion. Life; how hard it really is, is that much more evident when you've had it taken away and then cruelly returned. He is adrift and out of touch with a world that moved on without him in it.

None of this, however, compares with the disorientation he feels around her - breath tight in his chest and nerves that sting and prick in her company. It's almost too much - her friendly smile and platonic touch that he longs to turn into something far less innocent. Thoughts follow along a track in his mind; he can feel the groove that they are wearing.

Only alone under the blanket of night, in the hush and quiet of his room, in dark imaginings, does she belong to him. Eyes closed to reality, he grips himself tight; coarse masculine hands are fantasized as being soft and delicate. He hears her voice in his mind, his name a whispered prayer encouraging him to let it all and go and give himself to her.

He does.

Comments

[feuerfunke.livejournal.com]

I like this brief glimpse into Sirius's head, it's so thoughtful. Very well done :)

[ceredwensirius.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I don't usually go this dark or hopeless but it's good to stretch yourself sometimes.

[scifichick774.livejournal.com]

What a wonderful look into his thoughts. Very realistic.

[ceredwensirius.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I have this fascination with the idea that when Sirius fell through the veil he went to a happier place of rest. Which is well and good until you try to bring him back.

[whitmans-kiss.livejournal.com]

Such a beautiful piece. The tone of this was rough and wrenching in texture, and the transition to a softer sort of peace at the end was done gracefully.


Lovely.

[ceredwensirius.livejournal.com]

Thank you! It's hard to think about him this unhappy and uncomfortable, and hopefully he does get a measure of peace.

[karmasslave.livejournal.com]

I loved it, i miss seeing drabbles and fics like these.

[ceredwensirius.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you sweetie. I'm glad you enjoyed it.