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( Nov. 5th, 2010 04:14 pm)
Well, it's over. I am currently one gallbladder lighter. I am also high as a fucking kite. I want to snog whoever created Percoset. I will put up a post tomorrow with as many details as I can remember. I wanted to do that with this post but I keep staring at the screen or have to jolt myself awake. So, I am fine, I am home, and now I am going to go smoke an cigarette while my mother looks on with disapproval.
To Life Until Peter was found out and brought in, this was it. The problem was that no one but them were looking for him.

Heartbreakingly sad, but lovely.

Stars Shining Bright Above You When he dreams, he dreams in wide, sweeping epics or in perfect rosebuds of vignettes. The importance of dreams and how they can change you.

Sirius dreams about a man he's never met. Interesting ending.

Into Every Corner He falls in love with the music, and just maybe the man singing it too.

Adorbale fic with a besotted Sirius. Who doesn't love a besotted Sirius?

Team Canon
A-like Singing the Blues As the war slowly came to consume their lives, "London Calling" were two words neither of them ever wanted to hear.

Very short fic that really captures the despair of the first war. So ouchy.

Health and mom, arghhh )


Lost To Yourself Sirius Black writes gay porn for a skin mag, and meets Remus Lupin, who does professional readings (audio recordings) of his fictions, and there is flirting, and courting, and love over narratives, cds, and fictionality.

Oh, how much do I love this? Tons! This is a delightful story with lovely prose and a romance that heats up between Sirius, a porn author, and Sirius, his reader (think podficcer). Sirius' narrative changes as his desire for Remus, someone he has never met but whose voice he has fallen in unrepentent lust with. When the two do finally meet the chemistry simply crackles between them. This piece also features a very endearing cameo of Tonks, the snarky, pushy cousin who who banters wickedly with Sirius. Delightful that you should go read right now!

Going On Fifteen "Harry has a girlfriend," Remus says in a hushed voice, but Harry can still hear him from the bottom of the stairs. He shouldn't eavesdrop, but it's about him, so he has a right to know what they're saying.

A very sweet story told from Harry's POV about the anxiety parents have watching their children grow and hope that their own mistakes aren't repeated. This very short read is very endearing with memorable dialog.

Watching You When Remus, a Firebender, arrives at Hogwarts, he only expects to learn how to firebend. He doesn’t expect to learn seven other lessons as well, nor does he expect to find them the most meaningful lessons of all.

This piece is a crossover with the 'Avatar: The Last Airbender' which I have no familiarity with but still found this to be a charming, enjoyable read.

Team Canon

Je vois les autres In which Sirius likes to keep track of the things his friends do, and Remus doing whatever Remus wants to is turning out to be quite a problem. And Sirius's problem, at that.

I love a boyish, oblivious Sirius who is the last to realize he has a thing for Remus. This is charming to the last as Sirius stalks Remus about the castle becoming ever more frustrated with the werewolf's determination for doing as he pleases, with nary a by-your-leave for Sirius.

Tiny health update )
I got behind on my reading this week for the games but I'm all caught up and I come bearing recs!!

Some Dream By Day "Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act out their dreams with open eyes, to make it possible." - TE Lawrence.

One of my most favorite of genre's, the non-magic AU. In this, both boys have miserable home lives, have had to make compromise after compromise, and long desperately to get away, to seek a different future than the one their respective families want for them. They each have to make hard choices and leave things, people, and other dreams behind if they want to be together. Beautifully written, smoking hot, and heart-breaking throughout.

Sodom and Gainsborough Non magical AU - Remus Lupin is a miserable priest, caught up in a huge scandal. When Sirius Black (old flame and now astrophysicist) walks back into his life after 10 years, he finds himself getting a little more than he bargained for.

At over 55,000 words, this is a truly mammoth work of fanfiction for what is essentially a one-shot, and every word so completely worth it. I really don't want to give anything away, but it is one of the most satisfying stories I've ever read. The characters are drawn with an unflinching eye at how harsh real life can be, what the toll it can take on a person's psyche, but the story is told in such a real way, and with such humor and honesty. Just an awesome read, so go read it already!

Men of Six O'Clock Having been rescued from revolutionary France during the Terror, Remus Lupin cannot sleep.

Gorgeous, dreamy piece of historical fiction. I just love the style of writing in this and the atmosphere the author creates and maintains.

Storm in a Teacup Recognition of our mortality, or that of the one we love, can be terrifying. And when Harry Potter is six-and-a-half years old, it threatens to tear his family apart.

This is another very human, very real story. Touching, poignant and sad, but also hopeful.

Bridges I Have Burned Writing isn’t Sirius Black’s career of choice and he is struggling to meet the deadline for his upcoming novel. The new man that suddenly appears in his life provides a welcome distraction, but there is something mysterious about him that Sirius cannot point his finger at. For better or worse, the ultimate revelation will change both their lives. (Non-magic AU)

Excellent use of the first person narrative in this. Sirius is a very flawed man who knows himself to be a sham and a user and put the love of his life on the line for a filthy bag of silver coins.

How Soon Is Now? Four snapshots of the life of Remus Lupin, a young striking miner, and the start of his relationship with Sirius Black, a grammar school boy and son of a local councillor.

This is a quick read but the author manages to touch on some very heavy themes in this beautiful piece of historical fiction.

Flight From Grimmauld Keep Imprisoned within the old fortress of legend, Grimmauld Keep, Remus has been left to die. A freak earthquake destroys his cell and gives him a chance to escape, which he takes immediately. But in his bid for freedom, he discovers another prisoner--and Remus cannot, in good conscience, leave the other young man behind.

I really love this piece. The color and movement just gorgeous.

Team Canon
Absurd Joy Sirius bartends in a Muggle bar, winter after graduation, and Remus spends his Saturday afternoons smoking on a high stool, drinking rum and tossing peanuts at him when he thinks he isn’t looking.

Very moving with a lovely use of imagery.

Dark Hours Times are growing darker. Order missions are failing and the body count is rising. But Remus knows he'd be able to make it through all that, if it weren't for this.

Incredibly moving, must read fic.

Freedom Is Mine The Marauders go to Liverpool on the summer before sixth year. Peter is a stud, James realizes Lily is his true love, and Remus and Sirius share some things.

Lovely, happy mad-cap adventure!

Seeking Shelter Sirius' last moments before the meeting that would inevitably put him in Azkaban.

Very sad, moving piece.

Health Update )
ceredwensirius: (Our Lady of the Mods)
( Oct. 4th, 2010 10:58 pm)
First, I apologize for scaring everybody. I was in a lot of pain at the time, was starting to worry this was some weird prolonged heart attack, and my phone was dead and the charger left at work on Friday. I needed help and didn't know how to get it.

Again, thank you.

I'll begin at the beginning. I had just settled back after taking Lutzi for a walk. It was an ordinary Saturday evening, about 7:00 - 7:30. I had been trading comments with folks over at [livejournal.com profile] remusxsirius (or was it [livejournal.com profile] accio_rs_fics?) and posted a rec to [livejournal.com profile] crack_broom. The point being, most of the day I felt fine.

The pain came on sudden and strong. One minute I was preparing to read Team AUs fic and type up my daily_deviant piece and the next I had this dull, pressing, powerful ache right under lowest point of my sternum. I walked around, I lay down, I stretched every which way trying to find a comfortable position and nothing worked. The pain just got stronger and then I started sweating profusely which scared me almost more than the pain. That's when I put the message up. Thank you again. The ambulance was there within only a few minutes of me posting that.

So, my house becomes filled with Firefighters and EMS techs and Lutzi is trying to shower them with love and affection and it is generally bedlam plus blinking lights. They do a quickie EKG on me and make me chew baby aspirin and put a nitroglyerin patch on my skin and a nitro pill under my mouth every 10 minutes or so. Nitro is leaves a nasty after taste, in case you were wondering.

Let me say here that none of this doing anything for the pain because I wasn't having a heart attack. Also, add dizzyness and disorientation due to the pain. I have never been in so much pain I thought I would pass out from it. I've had migraines that required darvoset in the ass at the rate of twice a month, and been in a roll over car crash in which I took road burn on my arm and a fucked up wrist and knee and it was nothing, nothing compared to this.

The ride to the hospital was awful. I recommend never having a pissed off pancreas and EMS ride to the hospital. The ambulance's every lurch increased the pain and EMS techs either cannot give you pain meds or simply don't, not sure which.

So they roll me into the emergency bay and get me to move from the bed to a stretcher and I immediately do so and curl up into a tight ball. Because it felt marginally better to do so. Marginally. Which gets their attention because I should be on my back don't you know? All the while I've been asked the same four questions over and over. I barely had the patience for the EMS techs but I had managed to be civil through all their questions, but when I got to the emergency room my politeness failed me. And then they start pushing on my abdomen and asking me if it hurts. Me and my patience parted ways. I scared off one CA and had another firing back at me and that was when they sent a doctor over with my new best friend dilauded. That stuff was amazingly effective.

Here is where I start apologizing to everyone I snapped at because I know they were only trying to help. I answer all their questions, got a X-Rays, another EKG, blood drawn, peed in a cup, and had an ultrasound. It was the blood work that showed that my lipase levels (an enzyme created by the pancreas) were elevated. The normal range is like 35-50 (I think) and mine were in the 1000's.

They really weren't sure what was wrong with me at first. The ultasound didn't show any gall stones and I don't drink that much. In 70% of pancreatitis cases these are the main factors, alcoholism and gall stones. But they have the what if not the why so they admit me.

They couldn't get me a room until 6:30 am so I spent the night in the ER. This was an interesting night.

The tushie I saw wasn't hot tushie, but it was entertaining. Right outside my room (no actual walls, just a big sliding glass door) they've got a guy parked on a stretcher who has had a rough night. He got into a fight with someone (please bear in mind that at the time I was still high on dilauded so the details of his life are sketchy) while drunk. Really, really, really drunk. And bemoaning his lack of pussy. Loudly. Which. I mean if you are male and that drunk can you even get it up? Probably not. So, this guy under all those blankets hasn't got a stitch on. Not even a hospital gown. And he can't seem to keep his covers on. Entertaining! Hours later when he was ready to be released he hopped off the stretcher with nary a care in the world. Butt-naked.

Also, he wasn't the only streaker in the ER. There was a girl who joined in the fun sometime around 3:00 am. The ER staff had a dickens of a time keeping these two clothed and none of them wanted to stay put. As I said, entertaining!

So! That was my night in the ER.

The next two days were really boring. The pain never came back (I am not complaining) and they didn't feed me for the first 24 hours and when they did finally feed me, they kept me on a mostly liquid diet. The no food and liquid food was to give my pancreas a break. I may never again eat broth of green jello.

I did have cute male staff though and they were flirts. One kept me laughing all day Sunday which was lovely because in between the laughing I'm getting poked a lot with sharp things and getting other things stuck to me. They were monitoring a lot of things very closely like my lipase and what not.

Today I went for the second ultra sound and this was more in depth than what the ER had available on short notice. This showed that I actually do have teeny tiny gall stones which means the gall bladder has to go. I'll be taking care of that either this weekend or next in out patient surgery. I have had several people telling me not to put this off which strikes me as kind of absurd. No, I don't like the idea of surgery. I like even less the idea of having another episode like this.

One thing that was decidedly not fun was my mother having me as a captive audience. Which means I heard an awful lot about all the wonderful things Tom is doing for me. She's got a one track mind this woman. I love her but I wish she would let this go. I am grateful that he was there for me. I have thanked him repeatedly. I don't think thanking him with a reconciliation is the right answer.

So anyway. I am relatively okay. I need surgery and will get it soonish.

Thank you again for all the well wishes and the good vibes. They really helped and made me feel incredibly cared about. Fandom can be a really wonderful, supportive place and I appreciate every single one of you.


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